Lack of spontaneity means lack of self acceptance.
🤯 The Reflection Lost Will Has to Give 💅
"Lucifer sneered at Me and then began to laugh derisively. His laughter seemed to shake Heaven in a very destructive way. I actually feared for a moment that the sound he was making might crack Heaven open and I would look up to find Myself surrounded by monsters who hated Me for not being the God I represented Myself to be. I did not know that I was experiencing a reality I actually had created without knowing it.
Lucifer laughed all the louder then as though he had read My mind. It felt as though I were being hacked to death right in My own home. For some reason, I desperately wanted to get the Mother's attention.
I wanted help now, anyone's help. I was feeling overwhelmed, powerless and frightened, but I knew that I had to get Lucifer off of Me. I could not stand the vibration of Lucifer's laughter, and yet, I could not move to push him away from Me. I hesitated to think that I might not survive what was happening to Me, but it seemed possible that Lucifer had the power to annihilate Me with sound."